Worry no more my darling. That’s all i can tell myself. May 2017 my best friend comes home. No questions about it. He’s got a lot of regrets and hurt going on in his mind and chest. But, I’m doing my best to ease it. I can’t help but wonder if this is all truly meant to be. I mean he was considering another 5 yrs and once i find ou,t not even 3 weeks later, he is told he’ll be medically discharged the end of this contract. I’m happy because he’ll finally be home. However i know it’s hard for him not having the option to go back to all he’s known the last 3 1/2 yrs. I’m scared this is all too good to be true, but i wanna believe in him so badly. Just gotta follow my soul.
So today i got a text from him. We were having a casual conversation which was rather odd for us lately, given the circumstances. Then he asked. Apparently his white buffalo didn’t really know what she wanted. (How could you not want him though?) So maybe i will make the trip to Arizona. I’m a little hesitant because i want him to know I’m not just going to be the back up plan. However, he’s coming home in october for a week and he says he wants to surprise me, but i dunno if that’ll actually happen. I do know that i can once again smile because of him. He even said he’s been thinking about those to weeks. I told him about the flash backs and the cold chills i get from the memories. I’ve missed his touch so badly, but i know now that things truly do fall in place for the better one you give it time. the last week has shown me that countless times. I just need to let my should guide me.
No matter how many different ways you type it into google tumblr isn’t going to have it! Stop trying to find it because it doesn’t exist. No one is going to be able to write everything you feel. Not everyone is going to be able to tell you exactly what to do, what to think, how to feel, or even how he feels. You have to learn as it happens. It may seem new and scary, but look at how happy you are. He brightens the fire in you and your fire to his skin remember. Just enjoy every second because he’s going to be your best.