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Counting backwards…

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It’s been a week and it just hit me it all still hurts like hell. Seeing him share that post from their high school days just made it all the more real. My hearts in my stomach & i feel like a broken record. You’re not mine anymore and two months just flew by and i lost you completely.  I hoped i still had the chance of you being mine, but it’s clear we’re not meant to be anything more than friends and it hurts. I have no doubt in my mind you’re suppose to be my soul mate. But i guess I’m not yours and that’s just how things go sometimes. My heart feels so alone and not a single rebound could make this feeling disappear. I know because for the last week I’ve been drunk and on date after date. Only for it to hit me today that you’re all i want and I’ve lost you. I’m not what you want and it hurts after all the text and long nights that ended with lingering kisses that engulfed my soul. You let me feel the sparkle in my own eyes and I’ve never been more happy than those two months with you. I wish this wasn’t so fucking hard.
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5 Reasons Why You Should Keep Smiling!

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DeeScovered With You

Smiling is not always an easy thing to do. We’ve all said “I am having one of those days” at some point and I think it is alright. Still, I think that we should keep smiling despite in all (no wait,…unless someone insulted you, or you failed a class,or…you woke up on a bad news,or…) NAH! None of this should be a reason not to smile really and here is…5 Reasons why we should always keep smiling.

  • Your smile is your best makeup. It doesn’t matter if you don’t have beautiful teeth, you don’t have to show them when smiling. A smile is natural, organic and so…inexpensive! How not to use it? Go ahead and smile! I mean…now! STOP READING THIS AND…SMILE!
  • Your smile can affect someone else. This is by far, my favorite reason to smile. People will go and say that you are fake because you smile all…

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Note to self 14; ( nerves)

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I really wanna know this is going to work. I wanna know it’s not all too good to be true. I wanna know it’s ok to lose myself in this. That I’m going to be ok and that i don’t have to be afraid of getting hurt. I wanna know that no matter what i won’t lose him entirely and that this is suppose to happen. I wanna know I’m right in saying i may have found my soul mate. Ugh  I’m just trying to breathe. Hope october will be more reassuring.

Energy 

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I completely get this.

Here is to the Curious

Have you ever felt this weird energy with someone, that you start wondering if you’re just going crazy or if they feel it too? There’s something about this person that pulls you to them but you just can’t put a finger on it. When you’re in close proximity with each other your body reacts to their presence in a way you’ve never felt before. It’s confusing and weird and unexpected all at the same time. Then when you finally get to have physical contact, you feel surprisingly completely comfortable. With all that, in the back of your mind you ask yourself, “Is it you?”

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What Went Through My Mind When I Was At High School

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  • dont wanna get up
  • Five more minutes
  • I’m gonna look like shit
  • OKAY FINE IM UP
  • oh..my..god I look like the grudge
  • MAKEUP TIME
  • I have a spot
  • TOUCH IT
  • no. Don’t touch it
  • Ah fuck I touched it
  • Ew it’s yellow
  • GONNA CONCEAL THAT SHIT
  • bad hair day
  • Every day is a bad hair day.
  • Let’s put this shit up
  • I look like shit
  • Ahh fuck it
  • Got a belly ache
  • Wait
  • WAIT
  • NOOOO
  • OH GOD NOOOO
  • yep.
  • It’s happened.
  • Period.
  • fuck AWESOME
  • well I’m going to be in a good fucking mood.
  • I hate everyone.
  • Look at that girl
  • Look at her thighs
  • They don’t touch
  • Mine touch
  • NO. boys like curvy girls.
  • Please say boys like curvy girls
  • Eugh she looks like a stick
  • She’s so unnatractive
  • Bet she’s a slut
  • NO I BET SHES GOT A REALLY HOT BOYF WHO LOVES HER
  • I hate school. I…

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Fall

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Fall

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I’ve been doing everything I possibly can not to write about you.

I shut down my computer.  I make more plans.  I thwart my own desire to write.

I don’t tell friends your name, I won’t introduce you.  I put your flowers on the coffee table and stuffed the hand written note into the top left drawer of my dresser. Then suddenly, in a moment of recklessness, yanked it out and put it in my purse.

Unbeknownst to you, for the last two weeks I’ve been carrying your words, your crooked k’s and i’s dotted far to the left, everywhere I go. I know I’m falling for you. I’m fighting it every step of the god damned way.

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